My Favorite Pieces and some New Ones (My Last Post)

I tripped and fell off a cliff.
I fell... and fell... and fell.
It felt like an eternity.
Finally all I see is black.

Later I see the Sun beating on my face.

"I'm Alive"
Soon a pain shot through my body.
Broken, Smashed, Jagged.
I tried to stand, but I couldn't.
I crawled for so long I don't know how far.
Night arrives and I try to get rest.
Extremely tired and I can't fall asleep
                 --------
i lay on my back, where I stared out.
Praying for a miracle to find me.
I hear a copter and the light beams on me.

Relief fills my body for I know "I've made it out."

A screaming comes across the sky.

The sky was dark and hanging over this bleak mansion.

Creaking and cracking at the seams.

The emptied windows as black as coal.

The residents; some say still remain.

A man from suicide,

A woman from a murder,

A child from an illness.

Their energy travels through the mansion.

Their voices that sound like sirens.

It was a fine cry, loud and long, but it had no bottom and it had no top, just circles and circles of sorrow. 

If I had to name the most difficult part about being a teenager... EVERYTHING. Your growing and developing; physically and personally. Your forming opinions and independence. Your always thinking of what others are saying about you. With social media it makes it harder for teens. People being bullied and hurt. I personally go through the thought that people don't understand who I am. I want to feel excepted. I have always felt different from most people and that use to bother me a lot. Now I except it and I do feel comfortable about myself. I think people under-estimate how hard it is to be a teenager today.

I hope to continue with writing. Whether its songs or screenplays for movies, writing is very important to me. Maybe someday when one of my songs is on the radio or I'm winning an award for my film, I can look back on my times in this class and really appreciate what I learned. I might mention you in a speech Mrs. F (ears open.) So lets see what the future holds.

Dan in Real Life

I don't personally believe in love at first sight. You could have a connection with that person at first sight but I don't think that's love. People should really get to know a person before delving into a situation they might not be comfortable in. Were not all Romeo & Juliet.

I do believe in soul mates. Weither its a lover, a friend, we all have that one person that will always be with us and support us no matter what we do. It takes effort and not everyone does that. If we all try and look for that person you might be suprised at what you'll find.

My Perfect Day-

• No Bad News (From family, friends, news)
• Listening to Music
• Watching TV & Movies
• Spending time with friends
• Have no Stress
• Being Happy, Excited, or Relaxed

Sadly life is full of disappiontments. We'll get upset when we don't get what we want. We can cry, scream, or fight about it. But if we didn't have disappiontments, how could we understand happiness or acomplishments. When something doesn't come my way I fight for it. I remember after I auditioned for American Idol I was sad that I didn't make it, but I wasn't devestated. I realized that maybe I wasn't ready for the show like I thought I was. This makes me work harder for someday reaching my dreams.

Movies = Me

My favorite movie is Gone with the Wind. It's known as one of the beat films of all-time. I like it because it has drama, romance, and great acting. I love Vivien Leigh (played Scarlett) she is one of my favorite actresses. Although the movie is long, this story needs every minute to make it convincing and to stay true to the book. I remember when I first saw it I cried like a baby. It's a very sad story because you really become personal with Scarlett through her journey. For anyone who hasn't seen it I spoil anything, but I Highly recommend this movie to everyone.

The survey mostly says I love watching new movies and exploring new genres. This is true. I like watching movies that not many people have seen. It also says that I like to re-watch movies, again this is true. I  never get people who think it's weird that I like to watch re-runs or movies I've probably seen too many times. But if a movie is good it's good. That means that you enjoy what the movie is telling. There's nothing with that.

You casually mention...

You casually mention that I'm not aware.

You think I'm in the dark.

I'm no, I'm in the light.

I have my own deception.

I play you as you do to me.

The battle is on...

And I plan to come out on top!

My teachers and their Music

Mrs. Fraser- She has seen Lady Gaga (LUCKY) and Korn in concert.
                    She listens to 96.5 and 95.5, mostly because of her son.

Mrs. Willis- Elton John and James Taylor remind her of her childhood.
                   She finds rap music about mistreating women is offensive.
                   She doesn't like Chris Brown.

Mrs. Peterson- She LOVES Justin Timberlake

Music = Me

One of my favorite songs is "Quasimodo" by Lifehouse.  This song truly reflects how I feel about life.  The first time I heard it, The lyrics immediately hit me.  I Love Lifehouse for their amazing songs. They write poetry, not just songs.  This is a song that will always make me feel something.

My taste in music has defiantly changed over the years.  When I was little I didn't like exploring new genres or artists.  Now I enjoy learning about new artists and exploring new styles of music.  Now I listen to rock, alternative and electronic.  The biggest change was when I discovered classic rock.  My parents always tried to get me to listen to it, but I wasn't interested at the time.  Finally I listened to some a couple of years ago, and I actually liked it.  It was funny when my parents found out how much I knew about bands like Queen, Led Zeppelin and others.  I'm glad my love of music is a lot more broad.  

Without music, my life would be meaningless.  I can't live without music.  Everything would be dull and boring.  I can't imagine a world like that.

Music soothes me and helps me relax.  I like coming home after a ling day and listen to my Ipod.  No matter what mood I'm in, I have a song or band that I can listen to that matches it.

Happy = Upbeat pop or rock

Sad = Something personal

Angry = Aggressive rock

I want to be a singer someday.  It's been a dream of mine ever since I was 4 or 5 years old.  It's been hard for me because when it comes to performing, I still get nervous.  I did at one point have really bad stage-fright.  I didn't want to sing at all because of it.  Now that I've gained some confindence, I think i can be the true performer and singer that I am.  I plan to move to Los Angeles to start a career in music; either singing or musical theater.  I also might go to a college that is based on either film or music.  I guess I have to wait and see what the future holds.

Famous Book Quote

 "I'll think of it all tomorrow, at Tara. I can stand it then. Tomorrow, I'll think of someway to get him back. After all, tomorrow is another day." Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell

My Inspiring Photo

Bright, Bold, Excitement.

People all around,

Dancing and singing along.

Lights and Lasers galore.

Sexy, Slow, then Fun.

I had the time of my life.

Even with the protesters,

Nothing could have stopped us from enjoying ourselves.

Being with family and friends at this milestone was perfection.

Although my friend almost passed-out, she had fun.

Although my cousin was short, she had fun.

Although a huge guy was in front of us, we had fun.

Energies were high and screams were loud.

We cheered, laughed and were in Ahh.

The band, the dancers, and of course... Him.

It was exhilarating to be in his presence.

O how I would love to relive the memory again.

Guitar = Music

The guitar represents my love for music. Music is a very big thing in my life. My parents always listened to rock music, so I grew up listening to Led Zeppelin, AC/DC, Pink Floyd, etc. I also liked listening to Disney music because i always watched Disney movies. My mom also liked some other kinds of music. She also liked Michael Jackson, John Mayer, and Sheryl Crow. One thing she told me was when she would work out to Michael Jackson music, I would start dancing to it.

My taste in music has evolved over the years. I remember listening to Disney music. But when I got older I started listening to pop music. This was when NSYNC, Britiney Spears, and Jesse McCartney were really big. Some of my first CDs were Jessica & Ashlee Simpson and Kelly Clarkson. My parents always tried to get me into classic rock, but when I was 8-11 years old I didn't care for it. It was just a few years ago that I really started to listen to some rock music. I listened to Queen, Led Zeppelin, David Bowie, etc. I was shocked that i really liked it. It was a bigger shock when my parents first heard me talking about it. They also bragged that I was missing out on some great music. Now I listen to rock, pop, alternative, hip-hop, electronic, and others. I like the fact that I like listening to different styles of music and I get different reactions out of all of them.

Reading & Me

When I read, the one thing I like is to listen to music. I hate being in complete silence so I like to listen to my "Readers" playlist on my IPod. The music is slow and calming, so I don't get to distracted.

I mostly like to read fantasy books. A lot of my favorite books are fantasy: Twilight, Wicked, Harry Potter, etc. I like going into other worlds or situations that could never happen. Imagining that there real makes it all the more fun to read.

One book that "made me want to turn the page" was Twilight. I did start reading the series because people kept talking about them. When I started reading it, I was fascinated with the characters. I did wish I was Bella in the story. Towards the end of the book, the action got so much better that I felt the suspense. I really liked that book and I might read it again someday.

Some of my favorite books growing up was "Stella Luna" and "Verdi" both by Janell Cannon. I liked these books because I felt like they related to me. In "Stella Luna" a bat is trying to find out where she belongs. It takes some time but she finds her kind. I felt that I didn't belong until I met some of my close friends, I felt a lot like her. In "Verdi" a yellow snake starts to green and it scares him. He doesn't want to be thought of as strange or different. He tries everything to stop the green from coming, but soon he is completely green. He realizes that he has to accept himself as he is. I went through times where I felt different and was scared to show it off. Now I like who I am and I don't mind being different. I felt a lot like him.

"Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West" is my favorite book. I liked it because they were characters I knew from the Wizard of Oz taken into a new perspective. I loved Elphaba (Witch of the West.) She reminded me a lot of myself. She felt out of place because she looked and acted different then everyone else. The romance and the suspense together made a great book. A Must Read!

I Am...

Red headed, tall, 17 years old

Friendly, talkative then shy

An only child

An actor, singer, writer, dancer, designer, baker, drawer

A lover of movies, music, tv, clothes/makeup, candy/sweets

A hater of ignorant, close-minded people, hatred towards people, bugs, and clowns

A believer in myself, family, and friends

Myself

Meaningful Lyrics

"Does it scare you that I can be something different than you
Would it make you feel more comfortable if I wasn't
Well you can't control me
And you can't take away from me who I am." - Quasimodo (Lifehouse)

"Had my dreams held up
Had them shot full of holes." - Won't Feel a Thing (The Script)

"This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood.
This is to All of Us
To All of Us." - Angels on the Moon (Thriving Ivory)

"I was hung from the tree made of tongues of the weak
The branches, the bones of the liars and thieves.
Rise up above it, High up above it." - Night of the Hunter (30 Seconds to Mars)

"Everywhere we go were looking for the sun
No where to grow old were always on the run
They say we'll rot in hell but I don't think we will
They've branded us enough
Outlaws of Love." - Outlaws of Love (Adam Lambert)

"And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am." - Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)

My Opinion on Maya Angelou's Philosophies

I agree that writing can be hard. Even for experienced writers, inspiration can be hard to com by. When ever I write sometimes things come to me easily, then other times I have to think about it. When I'm writing songs or screenplays, I always want to be in the mood the piece is about. If I write in a mood the piece is about. If I write in a mood that's not compatible I won't write my best work.

I think dreams can show us things that we don't expect. They can take you to places you want to go to or show you things you've seen. I've even heard of dreams that can show you the future or can heal you. Dreams can show us so much it's hard to explain sometimes. The dream I talked about in my last blog about the staircase was  very revealing for me because it showed me how much I wanted to find my own utopia, a place where no one could find me or judge me. http://rhianaisadreamer.blogspot.com/2012/04/i-am-dreamer.html?showComment=1333482189956#c5065435818447727721


 Although I wouldn't go to the extreme of staying silent for 5 years, I have been through things that effected my personality. I had a very traumatizing experience when I was 5 or 6 years old that really changed me. I don't always like to talk about it because it was scary and it could have ended to something terrible. After it happened I couldn't trust people the same way I did before. Even when I was around acquaintances and family members, I felt uncomfortable around them. I also became very, very shy. I would talk to anyone unless I knew them or if I was approached. I liked keeping to myself and being in my own bubble. When I look back on that day and every other one since then, I think I've grown into the real me. I now am very talkative and I like meeting new people. I actually think that event had to happen so I could be locked away to find myself. If that didn't happen, I don't know if I would the same as I am now. Weither if that's better or worse I'll never know.

 

I Love Languages. I like that you can learn about other cultures through them. I would like to learn certain languages some day. French, German, and Italian are some i would like to learn. I am currently taking French classes here at school. I like French because it is a very beautiful language and it's very romantic. That is also the same way I feel about Italian. German would be spacial for me because I'm part German; it's part of my culture. I know some German words and phrases and I've seen German films. It seems to be a difficult vocabulary and sound, but I really want to learn. I am thankful to have learned English first because everyone says that it's the hardest language to learn. I hope one day to know how to speak these languages fluently, that would be awesome.

I Am a Dreamer

I dream everyday. Day or Night, anything can come to me. Because of this I've had a couple of odd dreams and nightmares. Most of them involve places I've been or things I've seen. Also many of them are very detailed and elaborate. I could tell you certain colors and features that were in my dream. these are some dreams that I remember the most.

• A Giant wicker staircase that is stories tall. It can be weak so I'm scared to climb it. I see someone trying to get to the top and I go after them. i felt like I had to protect something. Every once in a while the staircase will sway side to side. As we get towards the top, the case gets very steep. It almost felt like climbing. The other person trips and starts to fall down. I finally reach the top and it's a little resting area. Pillows, stuffed animals, and pictures on the walls. it felt like home.

(I know this isn't a wicker staircase, but it was the best I could find.)

I think this dream is saying I want to always feel safe and comfortable. Also a place where I can be free and be myself and not be judged by anyone.

• I'm laying down in my hearth room when I feel like I'm not alone. I look out the window and I see Michael Myers standing on my porch. I am scared. I slowly start to stand and walk over the door, never taking an eye off him. We stare at each other for a long time. I reach for my phone and he starts to walk away. Stunned I run and open the door. When I do he stops. He slowly turns around and starts to speed walk towards me. I am Panicked. I lock the door and run to my parent's room. I hide behind their arm chair couch in the corner. 

Michael Myers always freaked me out, but I did watch a lot of the Halloween movies. So the fact I had this nightmare doesn't surprise me.